Today’s Capture Your Grief is to participate in the Wave of Light in honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. We participated in the October 15th Wave of Light last year, as did many of our friends and family. At 7 pm, wherever you are, all are invited to light a candle to honor and remember all of the babies and children who have died too soon. The whole idea is there will be a continuous wave of light around the world for 24 hours.
Capture Your Grief – Day 14
Beliefs + Spirituality
Yesterday’s prompt: Has the death of your child strengthened or changed your beliefs?
Yesterday’s reflection: I was talking with a man the other day, a man facing what he described as the second most traumatic experience of his life. He told me he doesn’t have any particular or strong spiritual or religious beliefs. He was raised in a Christian home, but realized he had a hard time believing in God even as a teenager. He then spoke about ways he sees the faith of others help them through difficult times, and he wishes he could find that faith, too. He then asked about my beliefs, and eventually my family. I told him about Rayna, and he quickly asked if my faith was helpful during the time surrounding her loss.
I told him it was, and left it at there. The conversation was about his current experiences, not my grief. However, spirituality and beliefs are something I’ve thought a lot about since Rayna’s death. I’ve wondered if my sadness is what God feels when God sees human suffering. If my sadness is what my parents feel when they know they can’t fix my hurts. Does God’s heart break the way mine is broken for our babies? I believe the answer is yes; God does not intend for this brokenness, but is working with and within creation to bring restoration.
See, I will create a new heavens and a new earth.
The former things will not be remembered,
nor will they come to mind.
But be glad and rejoice forever in what I will create,
for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight and its people a joy.
I will rejoice over Jerusalem and take delight in my people;
the sound of weeping and of crying will be heard in it no more.
Never again will there be in it an infant who lives but a few days,
or an old man who does not live out his years;
the one who dies at a hundred will be thought a mere child;
the one who fails to reach a hundred will be considered accursed.
They will build houses and dwell in them;
they will plant vineyards and eat their fruit.
No longer will they build houses and others live in them,
or plant and others eat.
For as the days of a tree, so will be the days of my people;
my chosen ones will long enjoy the work of their hands.
They will not labor in vain,
nor will they bear children doomed to misfortune;
for they will be a people blessed by the Lord,
they and their descendants with them.
Before they call I will answer;
while they are still speaking I will hear.
The wolf and the lamb will feed together,
and the lion will eat straw like the ox,
and dust will be the serpent’s food.
They will neither harm nor destroy on all my holy mountain.
– Isaiah 65:17-25 –